Nos cruzos, me padilhei: da naturalização da solidão da mulher negra ao empoderamento como um ebó de costumes comportamentais e culturais

Abstract

The research seeks to highlight relevant aspects of the researcher's own trajectory and experience as a black and peripheral woman, exploring her relationships with Afro-Brazilian religiosity. The initial focus is on understanding herself before analyzing other black women, reflecting the difficulties faced in loneliness and abandonment. Thus, the research aims to capture the researcher's experiences as part of this group, using writing to critically contextualize her personal and family memories and experiences in the human, cultural and social spheres. The choice of ethnography as a methodology focuses on the understanding that the researcher's experience is a case study for notions such as black female empowerment and resistance as emancipation. The approach problematizes colonial wounds, highlighting ethnicracial cultural legacies and imprisonments as the first gateway to understanding the conditioning imposed on black women. The disruption of this conditioning is explored by the crosses proposed by Afro-diasporic female deities, the Padilhas, which emphasize female empowerment. The research dialogue includes concepts such as transgression (Foucault), cross (Martins and Rufino), colonial wounds (Kilomba), subalternity (Evaristo and Carolina de Jesus) and the concept of padilhagem (Rufino and Simas), acting as an agent of empowerment and deconditioning to face an epistemic ebó.